Recently we found out some very exciting news…we’re going to have a new member of our little family, arriving sometime in late April or early May. Needless to say, we’re quite delighted and feel incredibly thankful to the Lord for this coming blessing.
However, amidst the excitement and happiness, there have already come numerous opportunities to place this little one and the pregnancy in the Lord’s hands. While in some ways being pregnant again feels familiar, in some ways, this time around there are more unknowns. And with unknowns come chances to trust.
When I was pregnant with Cedar, the first several months found me dealing with really bad all-day sickness and exhaustion. I spent many of my days lying in bed or on the couch, reading away the slow hours, having so little energy that I sometimes felt faint just from trying to wash the dishes. Now, I don’t really have the luxury to lay around all the time, as there’s a very active little boy who will soon be crawling and then walking. Also, while the aforementioned little boy loves eating solid foods (a favourite being steak), he is still getting much of his sustenance from nursing and he loves it. I would like to continue nursing him until he’s at least a year, but I’m not really sure how it will all work out if I end up being so sick again. In it I’m learning to trust the Lord that He will indeed work it all together for the good.
According to my midwife, Cedar’s premature birth was the result of me having an irritable uterus (a condition we were unaware of until afterward). We’re not sure how this will play out in this and other future pregnancies, but it could mean several weeks to a couple months of bedrest in the third trimester and other measures. But we just won’t know until it happens and so comes the lesson to again (and again and again…) entrust it all to the Lord’s good and perfect hands. Amazingly, He already knows my little one and sees their tiny body and knows every one of their days and…loves my little one more than I ever could (though that’s hard to imagine). And…above it all, He is good. And I am learning to rest myself and my babies in that.