Things have been rather quiet here at Something Simple for the last couple weeks. The past month has been full of traveling and visiting family and just life. I have had time in between trips for blogging, but for some reason I wasn’t really inspired to sit down and write out what the Lord had been teaching me or finish up one of my drafts on different aspects of natural mothering. With my old blog I struggled a lot with feeling obligated to blog regularly and since starting this blog was a big part of turning over a new leaf in that area, I didn’t want to get sucked into that again. But I had another struggle.
Thanks to my handy-dandy WordPress dashboard, whenever I want to, I can see at a glance (in graph form) how many visits I’ve had to my blog on any given day. Obviously it started out rather low, but I was surprised that it climbed somewhat steadily. When I joined the YLCF team, it majorly jumped and I was excited to see how many readers I had. However, in the last month or so, as my blogging waned some, the numbers slowly dropped. And I found myself getting discouraged by that. But then I was brought up short by a blog post at one of my favourite blogs, Pursuing Titus 2. The post is called “Blogging By Numbers” and in it she related a similar struggle to mine, where you determine your blogging “success” by how many readers you have. And that essentially is focused on glorifying you…which should never be the case. In her post she quotes a bit from a piece by Ann Voskamp the really cuts to the heart of the matter…
“”Jesus Himself only had 12 followers. And He lost one.“
This has prompted a change in my thinking in two areas, closely related to one another. I need to remember Who’s glory I am blogging for. “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men…” (Colossians 3:23) And with that, if I’m truly blogging for the Lord, my “success” isn’t measured by how many readers I have, etc., it’s measured only by my obedience to what He has called me to…which, for some seasons of my life, may be to step back from blogging and use that time to focus on other things. Those are both lessons which I have by no means learned completely or even mostly, but I’m so thankful for the patience, grace and mercy extended to me, new every day, as I stumble along.
Soli Deo Gloria.